Err... Listen to Your Heart... NO... Listen to Your Frens...

I wont comment on this...



Narrator/Cameraman/camerawoman is Ms. Halina.

Sexy Smouldering Male Nurse= Me

Bomoh Urut= Uncle Nagamas

Victim= Ms. Mirinda

p/s: No Mirinda was harmed during the making of this movie. She got injured earlier that day. :D

(Trying hard not to laugh at friends... becos friends always laugh together, so she was laughing, then it's ok to laugh with her)...

Maybe my life isn't as bleak as I thought. Colorful people as friends. I guess I'm lucky.

Love life is ok... So and so. Still adjusting to each others' different temperament and discovering "new things"... *blush. Muahaha!

Workwise... I love my job... Seriously, I love the money, I dont care about the job.

Personal life... Bought a new bed with spring matress, bought a wardrobe cupboard, a dresser, a big mirror, coffee table for two... I repeat for two... Bedside tables, a pair of shade lamps... Almost bought an Apple I-Book (arggghhh!!! The reason I'm writing this down is to get it out of my head!) hehehe...

Ok, love to stay up and write summore but then again... I'm tired and sleepy, tomorrow at 9am got a meeting at the office then continue with normal work... It's gonna be hell under flourocent lights at the office. Am going to water the plants and go to bed.

Press Play, Pause, Stop or Eject, No Fast Forward, No Rewind

That was me, at an eatery in Langkawi not trying to look cute and happy.


Me and Ms. Mirinda...

Enough about the pix, it's just a snapshot of life. A small fraction of life, captured in those pixels that combines together to form a picture.

Right. I'm not making sense, I know.

But at times, you just grab whatever stuff flying through your mind and put in down in writing, no... Not in writing, more like in typing, trying to catch up with your mind and then realising that it's too fast for you or your fingers trying to type whatever you see, it just gives you headache.

So let's just take a deep breath and stop thinking for a while.

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Ok, now that's better. Does it?

My life sux.

I used to have a real one. My own. It's gone. I'm living somebody elses', I messed that one too. So now what? Should I go forward? Backward? Take a side-step? Stop here? Continue? Life's full of tough choices in it.

I dont know, I don't care.

It's been that long....

Fuh...

Last updated October 20 this year? It's been that long meh? That's long.

Me still alive... Surviving...

That's me and "My Twin" Muahaha... yeah right...


Me (pretending that I am)having fun while working... I'm so good at it (true for both work and pretending part)

What to say?

Plants thriving... Love life ok... so and so... Sex life... erk? Friends... Ok... Been seeing more and more of them lately... Fans... Erk? (I dont think I have any)... Work (Takmo komen langsung!) House (semak... as usual... Now cleaning for two.... lagi ler bertambah-tambah semak)... Domestic affairs (I'm foreign... Wakakaka)... Udah... Boring dok lama2 depan PC... Got to do something...

Hurm... Heh... Haha...

That's me.

Tak mandi. Gosok gigi pun tidak. Pakai selipar jamban. No underwear. 7 in the morning, half-way to the summit of Gunung Raya. On the 9th day of Aidilfitri.

Nothing to do.

Bored. Lonely. Bored.

Too much pent-up frustration.

Posing with my car, unwashed since my birthday. That'll be since July. Caught on phone camera propped on road divider.

Dont I look hot?

Muahaha...

First Time, Second Time...

In the midst of my mental restlesness, I chopped off my hair a week short of it's third year... Still feel a stab of regret.

Earlier today, after work, I pierced both of my earlobes. I thought it would calm the urge but the urge is still here. What am I to do? I'm in my self-destructive phase.

Anyway, happy holidays everybody.

I Often Ask Myself... Am I That Lucky

This relationship between me and A happens because of mishaps...

One after another, we grew closer and closer.

Now I think it's time to move on to the next phase. Maybe whatever that we have now will grow into something more... Maybe it'll cool down and melt and seeps through the holes in our lives...

Maybe.

I'm beyond that "What If" phase. Now it's "If I Let Go Of This, Will It Still Be There?" phase.

Things changes. From good to bad to good and back. Nothing into something, then maybe into something else.

My birthday wish has come true.

So now what?

So now I'm going to sit back and wait and see and maybe I'll risk losing A. I think if you love someone, you should let him or her free.

Song of the moment (although this one's a wee bit old, it has been with me since late 90s)





Kita bertemu

Di batasan waktu

Mengenal ertinya rindu

Indah menyatu

Kasih mu kasih ku

Di bawah awan setuju

Cinta yang ku dambakan

Sekian lama

Kini datang mengisi halaman

Menghidupkan kembali

Ruang nan sunyi

Kau yang memberi

Kau menghiasi

Hidup seindah mimpi



( korus )

Ke sayup bintang ku lepaskan

Segala resah di jiwa bersama mu

Ingin daku mengecapi bahagia

Ke sayup pandang ku letakkan

Harapan yang bermakna

Kau yang ku cinta

Kau yang bertakhta

Kau segalanya

Di mata dan hati ini



Indah cintamu

Seindah pelangi

Setelah rintik gerimis



Aku lena menyusur

Hari berganti

Tidak ingin lepaskan kau pergi

Kaulah kerlipan sakti

Yang menyinari

Moga abadi

Terus bersemi

Hingga ke akhir nanti



( ulang korus 2X )

Selamanya

We tend to do this...

Wah... It's been like ages since I posted anything readable. What to do? Been busy. Going to be busier still.

I've endured. I've resisted. I've suffered and enjoyed and suffered and enjoyed. I've ignored, paid attention and back again.

So hari Raya is just around the corner. It's a very small corner after all. I remembered filling up the leave form in April me thinks. Then I remembered cancelling my leave as i dont feel like facing my parents. I mean I love my parents but the M-issue will just get in the way and spoil everything. So I guess it's safer to stay away for a while. A while= almost a year liao. Sighs.

Love life wise... It's getting better. It all started so sweet, then turned sour, now I guess we've both adjusted. Still need lots of improvement tho. But we're getting there. Enough said. I'll keep my love life details as a private matter from now on.

Work wise... I am so tired. Physically and mentally.

Day-to-day-life-wise... I am busy taking care of things and people. The closest to becoming a single parent myself. I do it but that doesn't mean that I have to like it.

There's a saying that goes... It doesn't matter if you win or loose... The person who said that, probably lost. Ehehehehe...


Enough said.