Bittersweet...

In my hallucination
I saw my beloved's flower garden
In my vertigo, in my dizziness
In my drunken haze

Whirling and dancing like a spinning wheel

I saw myself as the source of existence

I was there in the beginning
And I was the spirit of love
Now I am sober
There is only the hangover
And the memory of love
And only the sorrow


I yearned for happiness,
I asked for help,
I want mercy.


And my love says,
Look at me and hear me,
Cause I am here just for that.


I am your moon and your moonlight too
I am your flower garden and your water too
I have come all this way, eager for you
Without shoes or shawl

I want you to laugh
To kill all your worries
To love you
To nourish you


Oh sweet bitterness
I will soothe you and heal you

I will bring you roses
I, too, have been covered with thorns

Ahm Bored... Feels Like Ahm Gonah Kheel Mahself

I dont know about the readers of this blog. Maybe they've seen this video, maybe not. Some time in the 90s, this used to be one of my favorite song, until I saw the video on VHS. Yes, before the time of digital videos on VCDs and DVDs and mini discs, we used to have VHS. But that's not why I am posting a second post for the day.

Like my favorite music video, boredom seems to be etched extra deep on my mind today. Seriously. Four days of complete idle. Mind, body and soul. This is bad. I have this itch of doing something. But too lazy to do it.

Been surfing the net all day. Woke up early then slept until like 4pm. I'm wasting whatever time left in my life. Wasted. Like tap water turned on while I brush my teeth in the morning, before I go to bed. But that's OK- I'm paying my own bills.

So back to the music video.

It's by Madonna and it's called "Bad Girl". You might not heard this song because the album "Erotica" was released around the time Madonna shocked the world with her famous "Sex" book (which I've seen cover to cover- Not as shocking as the media reported doh). So for once, Madonna made a mistake by releasing an album too close to something as shocking as the "Sex" book that the album was totally overshadowed by the book.

So it's about a (chain-smoking, hyper-sexed) girl (Madonna), who was succesful in her life, but lives recklessly when it comes to her sexual desires. The video starts with a scene in her bedroom with her corpse being found.

Time seems to stop then rewind to a few days before her death. The guy on that hydraulic-seat (her guardian angel doh) followed her around, unseen, unheard, but she obviously felt his presence.

Anyway, the girl, who was also a business-woman sometimes followed guys back to "do it" at their place. Some times, she'd bring them back at her place.

My boredom striked me again. I'll stop typing now. Remember- don't smoke, don't follow guys you barely know back to their place, don't bring back unknown guys back, wether for sex or any other reasons, guys dont wear long black stockings, lacy bras etc. don't get killed while doing things you don't want people to know about, it might end up on the News.

Just see the video and read the lyrics.

"Bad Girl"

Something's missing and I don't know why
I always feel the need to hide my feelings from you
Is it me or you that I'm afraid of
I tell myself I'll show you what I'm made of
Can't bring myself to let you go

I don't want to cause you any pain
But I love you just the same
And you'll always be my baby
In my heart I know we've come apart
And I don't know where to start
What can I do, I don't wanna feel blue

Bad girl drunk by six
Kissing someone else's lips
Smoked too many cigarettes today
I'm not happy when I act this way

Bad girl drunk by six
Kissing some kind stranger's lips
Smoked too many cigarettes today
I'm not happy, I'm not happy

Something's happened and I can't go back
I fall apart every time you hand your heart out to me
What happens now, I know I don't deserve you
I wonder how I'm ever gonna hurt you
Can't bring myself to let you go

I'm not happy this way
This way

I'm not happy this way
Kissing some kind stranger's lips

Abes.... But not yet.... This one's for My Baby.

Time Stood Still - Madonna


Despair, regret, and tenderness
Is what I feel for you
I loved you from the very start
What else could I do

You read my mind, you made me cry
Time stood still
And now I know the reasons why
Time stood still

Maybe you're the next best thing to happen
All the things we might have been

A flame becomes a fading light
That burns inside my heart
And like a castle in the sand
It had to fall apart

You made me laugh, you gave me hope
It's over now
Our happiness went up in smoke
It's over now

Between Penyakit Bisu and a Cold Shoulder...

Last week today, I was 8kgs heavier than I am today. some time during last week, my pants fell off in the middle of the pasaq malam. Now, when wearing my favorite black 3 1/4 pants, I'll remember to wear my belt. being thin is a risky business indeed. This salary, I'll need to buy more pants in smaller size. More money to spend.

Last week today, me and my baby at home, doing nothing but things that we both like to do (NOT THAT!). We watched movies, back to back (movies haaa... One after another)... Today, my baby talks to me using short short sentences. That or nodding or shaking head. When I say short, I mean like "Yes", "No", "Dunwan!", "Dont Touch!"...

At least my baby talks back.

Yesterday, to celebrate the last day of the first part of my dieting, I picked-up Ms. Mirinda and we went to a vegetarian restaurant. We ordered mock mutton curry rendang and sweet and sour mock-chicken. Then I drove her to LISRAM (Langkawi International Shooting Range, dono what the M stands for doh).

Then we went to Lubuk Semilang, on the way there, we heard Ms. Sufina on the radio, she asked "If you know what is love, call me..."

When she played a song, I called her... Saying "Love is something brown and stinky".

Ms. Sufina being Ms. Sufina, a lil bit on the blurry side asked back "What's that?" to which I answered "Brown and stinky- Shit!"

I dont mean that. Love is... When everything goes well, dark brown and sweet. Like chocolate pralines.

When everything fooked up, then it turns brown and stinky. Like shit.

But then again, after you eat chocolate, after some time, even the brown and sweet thing can be brown and stinky.

It comes naturally.

I think too much.

Anyway, between my babys' penyakit bisu and a cold shoulder, there, somewhere, a very confused me.

Here's some pix of super-hot (almost) 30 year old guy. Muahaha, I know the last sentence sounds very gay but what the hell, this years' motto - My car, my dick, my life, my business, remember? And there's nothing wrong for a guy to compliment himself. One cannot be gay with oneself right?

A pix of meself just before I hang up my baju to dry, very lelaki, suami dan dot dot, I know. But what to do, my eyes a bit sensitive in the morning.

Another one. Note the mischievous smile. Actually it feels so stupid to pose for the camera. Tak mandi lagi, berus gigi pun idak. Sorta kinda blurry becos no coffee for almost a week. Takmo minum neskopi sebab takut nanti seksa wooo bila mo start second session of tummy boot camp diet. Comel kan?

Doktor Sheikh Muzaffar Shukor wont dare posing for camera like this. He'll never look as good if he hadn't had his shower or wash his face in the morning... Hehehe....

Waaa... the name tag so beso gedabak one lah!

What I Said, I Didnt Mean It, In THAT Way, Anyway...

So, I was blissfully in love yesterday, and the day before. Can't really say for the days before that. I can't remember.

But yesterday, after 2 days of lazing about the house with my baby, we fought. And for the very first time, I yelled at my baby. No. I yelled back at my baby. I yelled things that I should've kept to myself. For that, I am so so sorry.

So my baby left in the wee hour this morning to work. No goodbyes. Nothing. Just open the door and left.

I felt bad. Seriously. This domestic thing is not for me. I yelled. I feel bad. Being yelled at feels just as bad. So no yelling from this day on.

Then as I was pondering how bleak my day is without my baby and as I was thinking of my baby, I received a text message. Long story short. My baby came back for me (tho, my baby hissed when I touched) the most important thing is, my baby came back!

Now to start working on how to make my baby talk again... Adei...

Bright Blue Sky Outside, But Inside...

Confused but Happy...

Remember when I said... It's good when it's good, most of the time, I'm just waiting for something good to happen...

Today is one of those days worth waiting for...


Spent the whole day taking care of my baby... Watching movies, just lazing about the house. My baby loves the attention... Hmm...

My baby loves me... I love my baby and the world will be a better place if everyday passes like today.

I know it's been a while since I did this...

My horoscope for January 22, 2008

Someone else's lack of good judgment may turn your perfectly good day dramatic.

You're feeling the urgent need to do something big and showy. It might be for a loved one, or it might be all about you -- but one way or another, you need to indulge your most extravagant desires.


My babys' horoscope for January 22, 2008

Family ties may be a bit uncomfortable now. Get some time by yourself if you can.

It's a good day for coffeehouse conversations and long talks with smart friends -- your brain power is tingling and you need intellectual stimulation to keep your energy levels from flagging.

What ever... I dont really believe in horoscope as my horoscope says that my baby and me, a most unlikely combination of the hearts...


So from skinned fist, to a great big smile... My baby stretches my feelings, mould them, make me smile, make me cry, ignored me, paid a great deal of attention to me... It's a roller-coaster ride for the mind, body and soul.

I love my baby.

Hmmm... Gimme More Distraction Please...

Yesterday was all blur too... Everything that could fooked up... Fooked up...

I think it's better for me to go into hiding... Just crawl somewhere dark, alone and sit there until the next ice age...

Enough about my depression. I am depressed, thinking how depressed i am without any reason to be depressed. That's making things more depressing!

I started my detox yesterday... It's simple...

Day 1: Fruits Only

Day 2: Veggies Only

Day 3: Fruits and veggies only

Day 4: Bananas and Milk

Day 5: Rice+ 6 tomatoes

Day 6: Rice+ Veggies

Day 7: Rice+fruit juice+ Veggies

+ a daily dose of push-ups (at least 50, most of the time I do a hundred- my back hurts, my biceps are getting buffer)

Basically in order not to look like a cow... One must eat like a cow... Am feeling a little bit bovine tonight...

Anyway am happy as today after work I went for a meeting and got people noticing I am thinner... Which is good as today I wore big baju and big pants... Hehehe...

And to top off last night... My cayang attempt at joking through text message almost gave me a heart-attack.

Me being the calm, in-control person that I am, punched a wall...

Note to self: Next time please dont punch the wall... The wall is innocent...

Wall versus hand pix...

I Feel... I Dont Know What to Feel...

If yesterday was all blur, today is very clear indeed... Woke up, went to work, acting all crazy at the office... Best quote muttered "I'm so fat, I wont fuck myself". Later went home...

Then I decided to walk to the night market... Teringin nak makan Yong Tou Foo. So I put on my clothes (I'm naked at home most of the time duh...) and walked to the night market...

When I reached the night market, I walked straight to the Yong Tou Foo stall and then went to the fruits stall, bought some fresh looking persimons and pears.

With 1 hand holding my Yong Tou Foo and another holding the fruits, I turned around and suddenly... I felt a sudden rush of air? Wind? At places supposed to be covered by my pants... Malu giler... Tengah pasar malam, seluar plak terlondeh. Luckily, I wore my good underwear... So I just put down the bags in my hands there on the jalan, bend down to pick up my pants around the ankles, pull it up, pick up the bags and buat muka selamber jalan balik.

Am doing at least 100 push-up a day now... 2 weeks liao... Supposed my chest should be defined now... But why the hell is my push-ups shrinking up my butt???

I will never... ever... Go to the Kuah night market in these coming months...

I Said This Before... I Know....

Today was all blur...

Like an addict deprived of his favorite drugs... Best way to describe my state of mind.

Had to force myself to dinner. Had dinner with my baby. Turned out not as expected. should've been better, but then again, it could've turned out worst. So for that, I am thankful.

For all the things that i've stopped doing because of my baby, all the things I'd do, this is all I got back in return. My baby didn't answer my calls, replied my text message with 3 words at most. it's OK. Been there, done that, now it's my turn.

Am going to start something new tomorrow.

Maybe I should just go on and live by something crazy that popped out on my mind last year... "My car, my dick, my life, my business"... Yeah, I think I'll do that.

I wondered how it would feel like to have some one like my baby beside me. Now I know. It turned out not as i imagined.

The responsible side of me says "Stay", the free side says "It's not worth the pain"...

My heart says "Anything in the name of love" while the brain says "Fuck, this, you don't need all this".

The world is just like TV playing in the background. I'm there, somewhere, but I'm not really there.

So here I am, typing away just trying to forget. It's just me, trying to sort out my head.

Did I ever mentioned that I bought an arowana? Yeap... I bought it last week me thinks. It fed on crickets last week. Today I'm out of crickets, so I practised my rubber-band pulling and aiming skills. Caught a house-lizard. It consumed the dazed lizzie with relish.

I bought 3 clown knifefish in December... 1 died. Bullied by the other two.

I got everything now. I yearn for more. I can get more if I wanted. Yet here I am. Anything in the name of love. Maybe somewhere in the near future, me and my baby can be truly happy. Maybe. I think I'll hold on this time. No use running away and starting over again.

Such a life...

If I Say... I've Said So...

I said this in my last posting... In 2-3 days... Bla Bla Bla... But i sent My Baby a text message (which I expected no reply last nite...)

Anyway, I dragged myself to the office...

Dragging ones' self to the office is not the best way to go to the office... Turned out it was a shitty day after all. Being noticed is like being naked in public (I'm no super slim swimmer patung kedai baju type... But I'm getting there... Very very soon, or I'd die trying...), but being ignore sucks! Enough said...

Then when my world turned brown and stank, I received a text message from my baby... Asking me, where I'm at? What time will I be back... Knowing my babys' working hour... I bagitau je la at about 5.30pm. Dia nak mai umah plaks... Dah ler umah bersepah... Kelam-kabut I balik... Actually kalo my baby tak datang pun memang I nak balik cepat2 jugak... meluat siot gi office arini... But a text message from my baby brightened up my day...

Then bila dah balik, I expect my baby ada kat parking keta... Tapi being a totally unreliable Gemini, dah agak dah... Sure lambat punya...

So I went up and without taking of my working clothes (Jeans and kemeja itam with butang from the colar until the pusat only, mind you!) I beleked my pokok2... Am planning to add some more Tillandsias to my collection, contacted Andy in Penang for some more plants...

Then a faint knock on the door... Then I pun lambat2 bukak pintu... Hmmm... Dengan takde walaupun secebis, mahupun secubit rasa bersalah, dengan muka cerianya dia masuk... Ok la tu... I bagi je silent treatment... Geram! Geram! Geram!

Siap boleh tertido atas sofa while I was reading an article about people hacking their lovers over the crime library dot com... ISK!

Anyway, waktu dia tengah tido tu... I tengok muka dia... Rasa kesian la pulak... At least my baby took the time and efforts to spend time with me (walaupun dia tido sampai berdengkur... Buruk punya perangai!) Tapi nak buat camana kan? Dah sayang punya pasal, I went into my room amik bantal, letak kat dia...

Sambil2 tengok muka dia tu kan... I thought to meself... Walaupun my baby is an egoistic, self-centered, narcisstic, bad-tempered person... And when we fight... We really fight most of the time over small, stupid matters, and we'll yell, and throw stuff at each other... I think I can spend my life with this person... Then suddenly... My baby woke up...

My baby left without saying much...

Today my baby (not in father-baby thingy, I'm not into incest please...) taught me something... In fights and quarrels, if it's your fault, it's best to be forgetful... Pandai la u!

While my baby slept... I took out my camera and snapped some photos... Not of my baby la...



But of the sunset from my balcony...

Cantik kan?

Something I photoshopped together for my wallpaper....

My favorite haunts: Where the main product is coffee (which the employees refuse to call "Coffee") and where they overcharge you for everything... Hehehe....

Hmmm...

I am lost.

Moms' birthday went by... The story that happened that night... I felt something bad... I felt sad... I tossed and I turned. I couldn't sleep that night and I went to work on that day feeling very sleepy.

My dad lost his handphone that day... I learned that just now...

Me and My sayangku are doing OK.

OK, I lied... We just fought again... Over something stupid. That's nothing new. In 2-3 days, we'll be back at it again...

But today's something to remember... Almost seven months together, we had our makan together at my place (which I kelam-kabutly ordered after work)we watched movies together, I bagi dia whole body-massage (while thinking, I could be doing other fun things), then we fought. No goodbye, no thank you, just left (but of course sebelum tu I kena baling ngan tuala...)

Great. The day started so well. What else could go wrong? Lots...

I dont know what to do. I dont want to think about. Just type everything here and go to bed...

Well anyway, my mom told me Mr. Shah got engaged. Good for him. So since I had nothing better to do and since he used to be someone very very very close to me... I called him after my sayangku went home angry.

As I waited while the tone ringing, I thought about starting the conversation with something like "Congratulations... Why didn't you tell me?" or "Congratulations... Finally it happened..." but something doesn't feel right... So when I finally heard his voice on the line, I started my conversation with "Hi, sorry to call you so late. Are you free to talk?" I heard something he said, but I cant really make it up, but something in his tone made me ask "Is everything alright?"...

His father passed away.

14th January 2008. The night that I cannot sleep.

This happened twice. First the night Mr. Edgar was murdered. I couldn't sleep. I felt scared, many miles away while my best friend was stabbed repeatedly, mercilessly and left to bleed to death.

I shared his fear that night.

My condolences to Mr. Shahs' family. I remember those whom I knew who have passed beyond the world, the sun, the sky and everything in between.

If I'm given a choice between dying young and to be able to live forever and watch everyone you know, grow old and die, I'd choose to die young. I can't take a loss like death very well.

My turn will come soon, I guess. No, I know for sure, but I dont know the exact date.

Arggghhh... High Tide... High Tide...

Me in my best trademark pose (Note the innocent eyebrow thing)

"The Older Brother Pix"

Me in my garang pose... Just before I cleaned the house and did the laundry... Didn't feel like doing the dishes yet... Lantak la... The joy of staying alone...

Me after cleaning the house, doing the laundry and hanging them to dry, kemas katil (waiting, anticipating errr... something...), Basuh bilik mandi, sapu sampah luar dalam... Peluh siot... Note the hidung in kembang mode... Bangga sial dengan pencapaian hari ni...

"The Younger Brother Pix"

Me after all the dirty works and after washing my face...

Ensem kan?

Kisahnya...

I used to say that I stayed because, it is worth the wait...

I wished for something... It happened (more than once... I might add... It was good... No... It was great!!!)

I want more...

So I waited... Nothing happened...

I waited somemore... Still nothing happened...

Finally... Yesterday... It happened... I wished it didn't happen that way... I wished it didn't happen at all... I thought when we sacrifice the quantity, the quality of it will go up up... But on the contrary, DUH!

To keep this post as U-rated as possible... Let's just say "It left me hanging..." The reason why I'm still up at 0115hrs...

Arghhh... High Tide! High Tide!

And today is my moms' birthday... Happy Birthday Mak!

Walaupun orang tak balik setahun lebey dah... Orang ingat kat Mak... Orang tau... kalau orang teringat kat Mak, itu tandanya Mak pun tengah ingat kat orang... Kan? (Uwaaaa.... Nak balik kampung... Nak bawak my mom gi makan steak... Anyway, untuk mengurangkan rasa bersalah sebab setahun lebey tak balik kampung... I wired some money to my sister... For my moms' birthday...)

Me... Moments before I got out of bed to type this... Do I look like I'm deprived of something? Anything?

YES! I AM!

Note the katil with the red bedsheet... Nampak sikit je disebalik rambut I on the left side of the pix...

Such a lonely place... Should've bought a waterbed so I can call it "Lake Placid"....

Argh!!!!! High Tide! High Tide!


p/s: Mind the lights... I burned my bulb (betul ke penggunaan tatabahasa ni? Rasa cam tak betul je... Lantak aaaa... This ain't a vocabulary and grammar blog... I ain't no English teacher, tho some of my close friends are, and they read this blog... U wan grammatically-correct blog... U do your own la...), anyway back to the sotry... waktu tu kan I tengah... Pakai seluar balik...

Suddenly my bilik became like a disco... Got strobe light... So after I put back my boxers on... I sacrificed my aquarium light (I used warm light for my aquarium, mind you!) And voila~ My bilik became a hotel punya bilik... I know... I'm not only goodlooking, I'm smart too... Thank you...

Another p/s: Note: High Tide causes craziness to your other head... The other head... The one with brain, on top of ones' neck? Head!

I need Money... More Money... and hehehe...

I am in desperate... need... of... mmmm.... and cash...

That's me holding RM16k at the office... feigning suprise... Ms. Ain Daud showing her materialistic side...

A New Craze...

Mr. Zai Hamzah

Haji Azmi

Mr. Ding

MS. Wan Sofiah

Mr. Zack

Mr. Saroji

Mr. Awe Brahim

Mr. Zaki

Mr. Shahir Danian

Ms. Suriati (Juon)

Ms. Shuhaini daud

Mr. Riduan

Mr. Che Khairun

Ms. Halina

Mr. AA

Ms. Mirinda Malini Makenthiran

Ms. Siti Mohani

Kak Lynn Anim

Ms. Jordin Sparks (Madonna John )

Yeap. I am now obsessed in taking picture of my friends holding their phone so I can use as thumbnail for my phone... I need to get a life, quick!

I think I've found a new hobby for this year.... No use to explain... I'll post them instead...

Half a year of being Together

Baby, I know that in real life,

I will never get the chance to say this to you...

Either I'll be too shy,

Or you'll be too busy...

Anyway I just want to tell you...

How colorful my life is,

With you at my side...

I love you,

I love you,

I love you,

I love you,

I love you,

I love you,

Hope you love me too...

(This is where you'll say... "Galak!")

Ngeee...

And to push in the desired effect(s) of my short candid poem... A video of my favorite song to you...

And of course.. To all of you... It's in Romanian... So I'll attach together a translation of the lyric...

Enjoy...

Dragostea Din Tei (English Version)

by O-Zone
Ma-Ya-Hi
Ma-Ya-Hu
Ma-Ya-Ho
Ma-Ya-Ha Ha
Ma-Ya-Hi
Ma-Ya-Hu
Ma-Ya-Ho
Ma-Ya-Ha Ha

Hello, Salute, it’s me, your Duke
And I made something that’s real
To show you how I feel
Hello, Hello, it’s me Picasso
I will paint my words of love
With your name on every wall

When you leave my colors fade to gray
Whoa I whoa I aaa
Whoa I whoa I whoa I aaa
Every word of love I used to say
Now I paint it everyday

I sold my strings, my songs, and dreams
And I bought some paints to match the colors of my love

Hello, Hello, it’s me again, Picasso
I will spray my words of my love
With your name on every wall

When you leave my colors fade to gray
Whoa I whoa I aaa
Whoa I whoa I whoa I aaa
Every word of love I used to say
Now I paint it everyday

When you leave my colors fade to gray
Hey, little lover stay
Or all my colors fade away
Every word of love I used to say
Now I paint it everyday

Ma-Ya-Hi
Ma-Ya-Hu
Ma-Ya-Ho
Ma-Ya-Ha Ha
Ma-Ya-Hi
Ma-Ya-Hu
Ma-Ya-Ho
Ma-Ya-Ha Ha
Ma-Ya-Hi
Ma-Ya-Hu
Ma-Ya-Ho
Ma-Ya-Ha Ha
Ma-Ya-Hi
Ma-Ya-Hu
Ma-Ya-Ho
Ma-Ya-Ha Ha

When you leave my colors fade to gray
Whoa I whoa I aaa
Whoa I whoa I whoa I aaa
Every word of love I used to say
Now I paint it everyday

When you leave my colors fade to gray
Hey, little lover stay
Or all my colors fade away
Every word of love I used to say
Now I paint it everyday

Few Minutes Before Midnight

Had a sleepless night last night... Suffering throughout the day...



I demam siot... Badan rasa cam kena pukul... Muka panas, mata panas... had a bad case of the Princess Diarrhea... Lost of appetite (ngade!), teringin nak makan nasik panas-panas ngan semangkuk Masak Asam Pedas Kacang Bendi macam Mak masak (minus the ikang... I tak makang Ikang! My mom knows...)

Still kena kaco through henpon... Seminggu into the new year... Laku gak aku... Hahaha...

Anyway... I just wanna say this... Aku merinduimu... Ding! Dong!

Balik la cepat... I demam ni (ish... ngade tol)... I know my sayangku kalo dia dengar I merengek2 manja camni, sure dia akan cakap.... "Gatai!" or "Galak!"... Then I'll go "Olo... I gatai/galak ngan you je... Lagi pun I gatai/galak dalam dose yang dibenarkan je..." (Ngeee...) Then dia pulak akan roll dia punya eyes... Lepas tu kan... lepas tu kan... Dia akan cepat2 tukar topik... Hehehe... I am so so so so in love... Dengan dia je...

Here's a pix at my favorite spot at my office... We'll call this place "The Tangga Belakang" starting from today.

Muka orang tak cukup tido/demam tengah isap lokok (AMARAN KERAJAAN MALAYSIA: MEROKOK MEMBAHAYAKAN KESIHATAN (DAN IANYA AKAN MENYEBABKAN PENURUNAN DALAM KESUBURAN)... )

P/S: Comel kan I?

New Phone... Not So new...

Hmmm... Temptations... Temptations... this new year is full of it... Three days into the new year and I've succumbed to one (well, quite a few... But dont feel like sharing)...

One funny thing happened to me earlier today... i went out to pay my internet and electricity bills... Being clumsy as I am... I stappled both the phone bills and the electric bill together, in case I dropped them in the middle of the road...

Then I went to the bank... Then I walked two blocks to the TM Shop to pay my internet and phone bills. Seperti biasa... Chit chat with the TM staff... I dont mind people asking me questions like "You ke yang dating dengan that super hot someone ?" or "How's (insert celebrity name here) been doing?" tapi ini dia tanya aku "Dah kahwin ke belum?" SIAO! Lepas bayor bill aku jalan ke kereta and drove to....

Drove like bodo2 to TNB. I got there... took my number and waited for my turn... Only to have the girl senyum kambeng at me saying...

"Abang... Bill ni dah bayar..."

I was like "Oh... Mungkin mamat kat TM office tu terkoyak my bills... How much do i need to pay?"

Then the girl looked at me one kind and said "Dia dah kira sekali kat kedai TM tu..."

I pulak dah termalu, then i said "Oh, ya ka? Saya tak tau pulak yang kat kedai TM tu bley bayo bill api... Eh... Malunye..."

SIAO! At least I made the counter girls' day by making her laugh... Charity tu...

This year is going to be swell...

Me and Mr. Ashraff went makan Beryani kat area Langkawi Mall... Had Chicken Beryani+Palak Panner+Mango Lassi+ Juice... The total= RM26++ for 2 persons makan... cheap kan? Due to my pristine public-relation skills... I dapat 50% off... Muahaha...

Then malam me and Ms. Mirinda went for Delifrance jetty Point... Had Egg Devine Sandwich+ Soup+Salad, while Ms. Mirinda had Chicken Lasagna (She wanted to feel like Garfield tonite), then we shared the Delifrance Signature Bread Pudding with Ice cream (which is basically bengkang roti boh kismis ngan eskrem)...

Jumpak plak Ms. Sufina ngan her Dad... Selamba dog je yours truly pi salam ngan subang ganaz kat tinga dua2 belah lain with her dad... Sure abah dia cancel my name from potential menantu list... Hahaha...

Anyway, Ms. Sufina forwarded me a video of a (suspected) underaged student... Very "talented" girl... Full of "potential"...

Budak2 zaman skarang...

I mean people have been having sex since there were people... Tapi yang sekarang ni hangat diperkatakan dan makin berleluasa is because almost everyone ada camera phone...

Dulu berapa kerat sangat orang ada video camera kan? lagi pun kalo tgh bernafsu a.k.a. in the mood, tiba2 boyfren ato girlfren pegang video cam tak ke nervous yang sorang lagi tu kan?

At least kalo pegang henpon tu takde la rasa cimon sangat kan(cimon means gabra kot... Mr. Firdaus my best friend kat SP selalu pakai perkataan tu)?....

Oh, before I stop typing... I bought another handphone... Nokia N70. I know it's an old model... Punya pasal aku la aku nak beli HP apa pun... aku pakai duit sendiri... Bleh camtu?

Dan bagi merasmikan my handphone baru/lama/baru... Pix...

Cik Mirinda Malini dalam keadaan kandid sedang mereply mesej bawah meja...

Cik Sufina Halim dengan "gaya tak tau nak cakap gaya apa" sedang mempromosikan jadual konti bulan Januari 2008 mini dibelakang tag kerjanya. Tak mandi dari pagi beb... Muahaha...

Oleh kerana kalian takmo pose lawa2... Aku pakai je gambo tak ready korang sebagai thumbnail bila korang tipon aku... naik ler gambo ni kat henpon aku... Punya pasal aku la... Henpon aku... Aku nak buat ape pun....

Huah huah huah... I am so jaghat!

First Day of a New Year...

Waaa... It feels like just yesterday we celebrated the coming of 2007... Now it's 2008... Waaaa.... Another year gone by... Umur meningkat... So for people like me... I'm aging gracefully... Too tired to post... I'll add more later...

This is the "add more later" part...

I think the year 2008 started out great... Was tired ushering it in... Now it's in...

I woke up late late today... Woke up to the sound of the phone ringing, picked up but couldn't remember what I said or who called... That's me... Muahaha... Fast forward to the best part... Sayangku demam (olololo... ciannye dia)... Datang umah buat manja2... I masak moi sup daging

Amylea and yours truly having pre-new year celebration dinner... Makan like gila... Paid like RM50 only... feels like stealing pulak...

Andaman Poolside New Year Party Pix... And Vid...

Ms. Mirinda (Mel the Diva) looking for victim(s)

The Strollers who refused to stroll...

In the middle of the jungle... As the sun sets... The predators comes out to makan at the buffet line... Just pay RM400++ and enjoy the show...

Me and Ms. Dwi...

As for me... last year brought many memories...

Some of them worth remembering...

Some I dont want to remember, though I should remember them as a lesson in life.

I have my space, my friends, my office mates, the people I know, the people who knows me, people I hate, people who hates me, my enemies, my family (although I haven't seen them throughout 2007, I know that they know that I always think of them)...

And I met someone who love me (in that persons' own way), we fought, we made up, we fought again, we adepted to each others' differences. We tolerated each others' flaw (at times by throwing stuff at one another- but hey, that's the way love goes)...

So all that I can say for 2007 is... We've survived... We've survived... Muahaha...

It was a party in the middle of a jungle... Happy New Year everyone(hangover-recovery)!

This year, hopefully will bring better results in whatever it is we're trying to do... More good stuffs, less bad stuff, please!

And another thingy... This is something for that someone... You know who you are... I could never give you up...

Warning: This File can Make You Lose Your Mind and Fall in Love with the Singer, who is sadly (for you) is already ATTACHED!