I tried making it work. I guess things just wont work.
So bad things happens...
You're sorry, I'm sorry too.
Well, not yet, but you will be.
Friday, September 28, 2007
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Something's Missing
Fiction
I left the safety of my house, moving away, just to escape the pain. For a while, I was free. Free from the pain, free from the worries.
Then I got bored, said stupid things, did stupid things.
I promised myself I'd never do the same mistake again. I didn't, I found new mistakes to make.
Fiction.
My horoscope for September 24, 2007
Don't think about things from a political angle -- just listen to your intuition.
Even if bills or other small tasks are pressing, try to direct your energy toward big-picture stuff today. Not only is it more appealing to you, it's also got more good energy helping you push.
My horoscope for September 25, 2007
Plans are shifting -- but don't waste your good energy trying to figure out why.
You are in a more thoughtful mood today and may want to take a chunk of time off from your daily routines to consider your top-level goals and philosophy -- at work, at home or in your life as a whole.
Note to self:
There's a lyric of a song that goes "Why's your life seems so bad, when you're so damn smart?"
I thought I'd share this with you.
What's an Unhealthy Relationship?
A relationship is unhealthy when it involves mean, disrespectful, controlling, or abusive behavior.
Some people live in homes with parents who fight a lot or even abuse each other - emotionally or physically.
For people who have grown up around this kind of behavior it can almost seem normal or OK.
It's not! We learn from watching and imitating the people close to us. So someone who has lived around violent or disrespectful behavior may not have learned how to treat others with kindness and respect or how to expect the same treatment.
Qualities like kindness and respect are an absolute requirement for a healthy relationship.
When these qualities do not exist it is likely that your relationship is unhealthy.
It's not healthy to stay in a relationship that involves abusive behavior of any kind
Warning Signs of a Unhealthy Relationship
Here's some scary news:
In one survey, 20% of American girls reported having been hit, slapped, or forced into sexual activity by their boyfriends.
And 40% of all teens said they know someone at school who experienced dating violence.
So if you think there's no way it could happen to you or someone you know, think again.
Know the warning signs of an unhealthy relationship.
Ask yourself the following questions:
Does my boyfriend or girlfriend get angry when I don't drop everything for him or her?
Does my boyfriend or girlfriend make fun of the way I dress and tell me I'd never be able to find anyone else who would date me?
Does my boyfriend or girlfriend keep me from seeing my friends or from talking to other guys or girls?
Does my boyfriend or girlfriend want me to stop playing on my sports team, even though he or she knows I love it?
Does my boyfriend or girlfriend ever raise his or her hand or act like he or she is about to hit me?
Does he or she try to force me to go further sexually than I want to?
If you can think of any way in which your partner is trying to control you, make you feel bad about yourself, isolate you from the rest of your world, or - this is a big one - harm you physically or sexually, then it's time to get out, fast.
Let a trusted adult know what's going on, and make sure you're safe from this person.
It can be tempting to make excuses or misinterpret violence as an expression of love.
But even if you know that the person hurting you loves you, it is not healthy.
No one deserves to be hit, shoved, or forced into anything they don't want to do.
Why Are Some Relationships So Difficult?
Ever heard about how it's hard for someone to love you when you don't love yourself?
It's a big relationship roadblock when one or both people struggle with self-esteem problems.
Your girlfriend or boyfriend isn't there to make you feel good about yourself if you can't do that on your own.
Focus on being happy with yourself, and don't take on the responsibility of worrying about someone else's happiness.
What if you feel that your girlfriend or boyfriend needs too much from you? If the relationship feels like a burden or a drag instead of a joy, it may be time to think about whether it's a healthy relationship match for you.
Someone who's not happy or secure may have trouble being a healthy relationship partner.
Relationships if healthy can be one of the best - and most challenging - parts of your world.
They can be full of fun, romance, excitement, intense feelings, and occasional heartache, too.
Whether you're single or in a relationship, remember it's good to be choosy about who you get close to.
And if you're already part of a pair, make sure the relationship you're in brings out the best in both of you.
I left the safety of my house, moving away, just to escape the pain. For a while, I was free. Free from the pain, free from the worries.
Then I got bored, said stupid things, did stupid things.
I promised myself I'd never do the same mistake again. I didn't, I found new mistakes to make.
Fiction.
My horoscope for September 24, 2007
Don't think about things from a political angle -- just listen to your intuition.
Even if bills or other small tasks are pressing, try to direct your energy toward big-picture stuff today. Not only is it more appealing to you, it's also got more good energy helping you push.
My horoscope for September 25, 2007
Plans are shifting -- but don't waste your good energy trying to figure out why.
You are in a more thoughtful mood today and may want to take a chunk of time off from your daily routines to consider your top-level goals and philosophy -- at work, at home or in your life as a whole.
Note to self:
There's a lyric of a song that goes "Why's your life seems so bad, when you're so damn smart?"
I thought I'd share this with you.
What's an Unhealthy Relationship?
A relationship is unhealthy when it involves mean, disrespectful, controlling, or abusive behavior.
Some people live in homes with parents who fight a lot or even abuse each other - emotionally or physically.
For people who have grown up around this kind of behavior it can almost seem normal or OK.
It's not! We learn from watching and imitating the people close to us. So someone who has lived around violent or disrespectful behavior may not have learned how to treat others with kindness and respect or how to expect the same treatment.
Qualities like kindness and respect are an absolute requirement for a healthy relationship.
When these qualities do not exist it is likely that your relationship is unhealthy.
It's not healthy to stay in a relationship that involves abusive behavior of any kind
Warning Signs of a Unhealthy Relationship
Here's some scary news:
In one survey, 20% of American girls reported having been hit, slapped, or forced into sexual activity by their boyfriends.
And 40% of all teens said they know someone at school who experienced dating violence.
So if you think there's no way it could happen to you or someone you know, think again.
Know the warning signs of an unhealthy relationship.
Ask yourself the following questions:
Does my boyfriend or girlfriend get angry when I don't drop everything for him or her?
Does my boyfriend or girlfriend make fun of the way I dress and tell me I'd never be able to find anyone else who would date me?
Does my boyfriend or girlfriend keep me from seeing my friends or from talking to other guys or girls?
Does my boyfriend or girlfriend want me to stop playing on my sports team, even though he or she knows I love it?
Does my boyfriend or girlfriend ever raise his or her hand or act like he or she is about to hit me?
Does he or she try to force me to go further sexually than I want to?
If you can think of any way in which your partner is trying to control you, make you feel bad about yourself, isolate you from the rest of your world, or - this is a big one - harm you physically or sexually, then it's time to get out, fast.
Let a trusted adult know what's going on, and make sure you're safe from this person.
It can be tempting to make excuses or misinterpret violence as an expression of love.
But even if you know that the person hurting you loves you, it is not healthy.
No one deserves to be hit, shoved, or forced into anything they don't want to do.
Why Are Some Relationships So Difficult?
Ever heard about how it's hard for someone to love you when you don't love yourself?
It's a big relationship roadblock when one or both people struggle with self-esteem problems.
Your girlfriend or boyfriend isn't there to make you feel good about yourself if you can't do that on your own.
Focus on being happy with yourself, and don't take on the responsibility of worrying about someone else's happiness.
What if you feel that your girlfriend or boyfriend needs too much from you? If the relationship feels like a burden or a drag instead of a joy, it may be time to think about whether it's a healthy relationship match for you.
Someone who's not happy or secure may have trouble being a healthy relationship partner.
Relationships if healthy can be one of the best - and most challenging - parts of your world.
They can be full of fun, romance, excitement, intense feelings, and occasional heartache, too.
Whether you're single or in a relationship, remember it's good to be choosy about who you get close to.
And if you're already part of a pair, make sure the relationship you're in brings out the best in both of you.
Monday, September 24, 2007
The Concept of Marriage (That I Cant Grasp)
So here I am... at 3.20 in the wee hours... Not sleeping tho I am working later at noon... Thinking about stuff. What kind of stuff? Well marriage for one. Yeap.. Marriage... I am thinking about... Mmmm... Marriage... Scary stuff...
Reality check here... My mom's been nagging me to say yes to... Mmmm... Marriage... Of all the females... To my best friends' younger sister... I've known her and her family very well. I know his brother very very well. His family is like my own. So imagine that. Maybe for some people, it's OK, it'll make the whole M thing easier. No hassle. But imagine knowing a girl and seeing her since she was small. You know... Little girl... When she was small... eeee...
Anyway putting her and her family aside. I never understand the concept of marriage. First and foremost... It's about sharing. Sharing everything. The money, time, space, the bed, bathroom, livingroom, car, every-fooking-thing. I can never do that. I need my space. No, I jealously guard my space. Entry passes given for a limited time only.
Some people say that when one is truly in love, one will learn to share.
I am in love at the moment. The most intense love I've ever experienced in my whole adult life...
The main reason it still last past 7 working days is that we both needed our own space.
Being in love at the moment is like pleasure-pain-pleasure-pain thing. It's good when it's good. It sucks when things go bad. In between of course there's the suspicion of both sides, wondering where's the other person and doing what, with whom? Faithful or unfaithful. Should I go and check? If I go check then it's confirmed I kena kencing? So better not check. If you seek, you find, then you tension... Kan? Play safe. Better dont check.
Then of course there's the putting up with one anothers' flaws. People say that you like people because of your similarities, but you love people because of your difference, that makes you both complement one another. Friction. I think it was I who said that. People in love are always inclined to say and do stupid things.
Back to the M-matter... I am in love. I am so in love. With someone. But am not ready to do it. Hmmm... I cant imagine myself as a husband/a father.
Let's think about it.
Husband+Wife=Kids. Lemme rephrase that... Fertile Husband+Fertile Wife+doing the do=Kid(s). I never like kids. Lemme rephrase that too. I hate kids. They're loud, they smells and they cries, loud! I used to say I can't mate in captivity. Now I'd rather not mate at all. But who will take care of poor old me when I'm old? Imagine being old and broke... Who will take care of the poor old me? Maybe it's time to register for organ donation. But I'll keep my lungs when I'm dead. My heart too. They can have everything else. I wonder if they'll accept a living donor? Just gas me unconcious and hack me to pieces and bury the remain. Easier typed than done.
I dont like other peoples' kids. I cant imagine myself liking my own.
Ok... Maybe it's too early to think about children. Back a few steps for a bit. Marriage. It's such a life-long commitment. Most of my friends are married, with kids. Most of them are not happy. Some are happy. Outside. Enough said.
Ok. I tortured myself enough thinking about this subject. I'm going to bed.
Kesimpulannya: Kesimpulannya masih bersimpul.
Reality check here... My mom's been nagging me to say yes to... Mmmm... Marriage... Of all the females... To my best friends' younger sister... I've known her and her family very well. I know his brother very very well. His family is like my own. So imagine that. Maybe for some people, it's OK, it'll make the whole M thing easier. No hassle. But imagine knowing a girl and seeing her since she was small. You know... Little girl... When she was small... eeee...
Anyway putting her and her family aside. I never understand the concept of marriage. First and foremost... It's about sharing. Sharing everything. The money, time, space, the bed, bathroom, livingroom, car, every-fooking-thing. I can never do that. I need my space. No, I jealously guard my space. Entry passes given for a limited time only.
Some people say that when one is truly in love, one will learn to share.
I am in love at the moment. The most intense love I've ever experienced in my whole adult life...
The main reason it still last past 7 working days is that we both needed our own space.
Being in love at the moment is like pleasure-pain-pleasure-pain thing. It's good when it's good. It sucks when things go bad. In between of course there's the suspicion of both sides, wondering where's the other person and doing what, with whom? Faithful or unfaithful. Should I go and check? If I go check then it's confirmed I kena kencing? So better not check. If you seek, you find, then you tension... Kan? Play safe. Better dont check.
Then of course there's the putting up with one anothers' flaws. People say that you like people because of your similarities, but you love people because of your difference, that makes you both complement one another. Friction. I think it was I who said that. People in love are always inclined to say and do stupid things.
Back to the M-matter... I am in love. I am so in love. With someone. But am not ready to do it. Hmmm... I cant imagine myself as a husband/a father.
Let's think about it.
Husband+Wife=Kids. Lemme rephrase that... Fertile Husband+Fertile Wife+doing the do=Kid(s). I never like kids. Lemme rephrase that too. I hate kids. They're loud, they smells and they cries, loud! I used to say I can't mate in captivity. Now I'd rather not mate at all. But who will take care of poor old me when I'm old? Imagine being old and broke... Who will take care of the poor old me? Maybe it's time to register for organ donation. But I'll keep my lungs when I'm dead. My heart too. They can have everything else. I wonder if they'll accept a living donor? Just gas me unconcious and hack me to pieces and bury the remain. Easier typed than done.
I dont like other peoples' kids. I cant imagine myself liking my own.
Ok... Maybe it's too early to think about children. Back a few steps for a bit. Marriage. It's such a life-long commitment. Most of my friends are married, with kids. Most of them are not happy. Some are happy. Outside. Enough said.
Ok. I tortured myself enough thinking about this subject. I'm going to bed.
Kesimpulannya: Kesimpulannya masih bersimpul.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Feelin Great vs Feeling Crappy
Fiction.
So this is a difficult relationship...
I need security and the other person wants freedom.
So what's next, we both need to go down halfway and meet somewhere in the middle.
No?
Ok, you just stay where you are and I'll go down a couple of notches below my standard(s) and meet you there? No?
Then maybe, if you could just tell me what exactly that you want...
No? Yes?
Anybody ever wondered what is it that I want? No body asked, so nobody wants to know.
But that's not important.What i want isn't important. To you. To them. To everybody.
I was told, if you don't do something with your life, you'd die for nothing. Do things, you'd die anyway. Everybody dies. You, me, everybody. We're all dying. We're doing it now. So do it matter?
Life's like a flight of stairs. Going up going down. Jumping off is optional. Skipping a few steps is optional too. Falling down and breaking your nose is optional too. One dont have to do it if one didn't want to.
I mean you feed what you want to survive and starve what you want to kill. So what if it's like the other way around? Impossible? No. Just difficult. Understandable but confusing? Right.
This isn't about me.
It's about the moonlight shining on drops of dew on a leaf tip, somewhere dark.
Fiction.
The irony of it all is... No matter how low you're feeling, It can be fun looking down at people... I am going too deep... Enough already...
So am I being cruel? I dont think so... Fook what everybody else thinks... They don't give me money.
My horoscope says... September 21, 2007
Today's events might catch you a bit off guard, but you can regain balance easily.
Especially when you're on the job, you find that you have a hard time keeping up appearances. You may need to take a half-day, or find some new and clever way to show the public your best face.
September 22, 2007
Keeping more of your money is something you're close to figuring out how to do.
Your emotional nature may get the better of you at some point today, but others may not even notice! They all seem a little robotic -- which may be part of the problem -- and are just going about their business.
So this is a difficult relationship...
I need security and the other person wants freedom.
So what's next, we both need to go down halfway and meet somewhere in the middle.
No?
Ok, you just stay where you are and I'll go down a couple of notches below my standard(s) and meet you there? No?
Then maybe, if you could just tell me what exactly that you want...
No? Yes?
Anybody ever wondered what is it that I want? No body asked, so nobody wants to know.
But that's not important.What i want isn't important. To you. To them. To everybody.
I was told, if you don't do something with your life, you'd die for nothing. Do things, you'd die anyway. Everybody dies. You, me, everybody. We're all dying. We're doing it now. So do it matter?
Life's like a flight of stairs. Going up going down. Jumping off is optional. Skipping a few steps is optional too. Falling down and breaking your nose is optional too. One dont have to do it if one didn't want to.
I mean you feed what you want to survive and starve what you want to kill. So what if it's like the other way around? Impossible? No. Just difficult. Understandable but confusing? Right.
This isn't about me.
It's about the moonlight shining on drops of dew on a leaf tip, somewhere dark.
Fiction.
The irony of it all is... No matter how low you're feeling, It can be fun looking down at people... I am going too deep... Enough already...
So am I being cruel? I dont think so... Fook what everybody else thinks... They don't give me money.
My horoscope says... September 21, 2007
Today's events might catch you a bit off guard, but you can regain balance easily.
Especially when you're on the job, you find that you have a hard time keeping up appearances. You may need to take a half-day, or find some new and clever way to show the public your best face.
September 22, 2007
Keeping more of your money is something you're close to figuring out how to do.
Your emotional nature may get the better of you at some point today, but others may not even notice! They all seem a little robotic -- which may be part of the problem -- and are just going about their business.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Me goin extra Ga Ga nowdays
My horoscope today says September 19, 2007
Your flirty side may not feel like coming out today, but others are flirting away!
While everything seems to be fine on the surface, you may need to work on some personal issue that has been nagging at you lately. You've certainly got the right mindset for it now, so take all the time you need!
Bad Moment OST
The Words
Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.
Note to self: Aiya! Am not depressed, am not depressed... Am not... Who am I kidding? Self empowerment only works with school students...
But this time am not depressed with depressing matters. It's about dealing with absence. It's about how the heart grows fonder when the other person is not there, it makes one wanna fondles something... Astaga! Posa la... Ish...
Speaking of puasa... After almost a week of posa, I dono la... I mean I posa, it's cool to posa and go to work... But since my schedule is like rongak (1 day working, 1 day off, 1 day working, 1 day off, 1 day working, 2 days off- that's rongak) I find myself getting bored when I'm at home.
Raided the fridge today and found (GASPS!) an unopened packets of condoms in my fridge... Lakhabau sungguh, I know who put it there, not telling, but it was like ages since this crazy dude visited me in Langkawi. Patut la time nak blah dulu beriya-iya salam mintak ampun... Swinging Bowl sungguh... Hampehs. Sabo je la...
You see la, with these kind of people as my friend... No wonder I dont have much friends...
Unopened packets of condoms aside, the content of the fridge was like surprising, I went like... Hmmm... peanuts... now when did I bought those? (Toss into the black garbage bag) Pistachioes... Hmmm didn't remember buying them (Toss into the black garbage bag), achovies... how did these get here (Toss into the black garbage bag)... Lemons... Ni sapa plak beli ni? (Toss into the black garbage bag)... Errr, what is this? (Toss into the black garbage bag)... So in the end, I got an almost empty fridge and 1 bulging black garbage bag...
By the way, I paid my car insurrance already, I'm yet to pay for the house rental and the tipon bills and tenet bills... Almost broke... Adula...
Okla... Imsak finish already, wanna go to bed... Later kerja plak... Huargh!
Before I go back to bed and god knows when I'll have the time and interest to update this blog thingy, I'd love to dedicate this raya song to...
Cehs...
Anyway, it's just something that came up in my mind at the moment, I post it here so it wont kaco me in real life... We can't stay together, yet we can't be apart... That's painful, that's sweet, well, errr... mostly painful, but sweet...
Hehehe... Ala2 BDSM plak my relationship.
Your flirty side may not feel like coming out today, but others are flirting away!
While everything seems to be fine on the surface, you may need to work on some personal issue that has been nagging at you lately. You've certainly got the right mindset for it now, so take all the time you need!
Bad Moment OST
The Words
Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.
Note to self: Aiya! Am not depressed, am not depressed... Am not... Who am I kidding? Self empowerment only works with school students...
But this time am not depressed with depressing matters. It's about dealing with absence. It's about how the heart grows fonder when the other person is not there, it makes one wanna fondles something... Astaga! Posa la... Ish...
Speaking of puasa... After almost a week of posa, I dono la... I mean I posa, it's cool to posa and go to work... But since my schedule is like rongak (1 day working, 1 day off, 1 day working, 1 day off, 1 day working, 2 days off- that's rongak) I find myself getting bored when I'm at home.
Raided the fridge today and found (GASPS!) an unopened packets of condoms in my fridge... Lakhabau sungguh, I know who put it there, not telling, but it was like ages since this crazy dude visited me in Langkawi. Patut la time nak blah dulu beriya-iya salam mintak ampun... Swinging Bowl sungguh... Hampehs. Sabo je la...
You see la, with these kind of people as my friend... No wonder I dont have much friends...
Unopened packets of condoms aside, the content of the fridge was like surprising, I went like... Hmmm... peanuts... now when did I bought those? (Toss into the black garbage bag) Pistachioes... Hmmm didn't remember buying them (Toss into the black garbage bag), achovies... how did these get here (Toss into the black garbage bag)... Lemons... Ni sapa plak beli ni? (Toss into the black garbage bag)... Errr, what is this? (Toss into the black garbage bag)... So in the end, I got an almost empty fridge and 1 bulging black garbage bag...
By the way, I paid my car insurrance already, I'm yet to pay for the house rental and the tipon bills and tenet bills... Almost broke... Adula...
Okla... Imsak finish already, wanna go to bed... Later kerja plak... Huargh!
Before I go back to bed and god knows when I'll have the time and interest to update this blog thingy, I'd love to dedicate this raya song to...
Cehs...
Anyway, it's just something that came up in my mind at the moment, I post it here so it wont kaco me in real life... We can't stay together, yet we can't be apart... That's painful, that's sweet, well, errr... mostly painful, but sweet...
Hehehe... Ala2 BDSM plak my relationship.
Friday, September 14, 2007
Puasa... Hmmm...
Argh.... I've got the flu.... This usually happens during ramadhan.
I'm in desperate need of some tender loving care...
Fell in love, but now not so sure if it's love... I mean like the saying goes... Lust can be sated... But love lingers on... Maybe it's lust... On a higher dose.
Next time when you make a wish, becareful of what you wished for because it might just come true but not the way you want it to be...
Enough said...
Anyway... Bad Moment OST for the moment...
Wild World- Mr. Big
La...la...la...la...la
Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you want to start something new
And it's breaking my heart you're leaving
Baby I'm grieving
And if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
A lot of nice things turn bad out there
Oh baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
(yeah...) oh baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child girl
You know I've seen a lot of
What the world can do
And it's breaking my heart in two
Coz I never want to see you sad girl
Don't be a bad girl
But if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there's
A lot of bad and beware
La...la...la...la...la...baby I love you.
I'm-trying-to-cheer-myself-up Song
Ghita- Cleopatra Stratan....
Uwaaaaaa.... It's not working.... I'm going to bed...
I'm in desperate need of some tender loving care...
Fell in love, but now not so sure if it's love... I mean like the saying goes... Lust can be sated... But love lingers on... Maybe it's lust... On a higher dose.
Next time when you make a wish, becareful of what you wished for because it might just come true but not the way you want it to be...
Enough said...
Anyway... Bad Moment OST for the moment...
Wild World- Mr. Big
La...la...la...la...la
Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you want to start something new
And it's breaking my heart you're leaving
Baby I'm grieving
And if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
A lot of nice things turn bad out there
Oh baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
(yeah...) oh baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child girl
You know I've seen a lot of
What the world can do
And it's breaking my heart in two
Coz I never want to see you sad girl
Don't be a bad girl
But if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there's
A lot of bad and beware
La...la...la...la...la...baby I love you.
I'm-trying-to-cheer-myself-up Song
Ghita- Cleopatra Stratan....
Uwaaaaaa.... It's not working.... I'm going to bed...
Sunday, September 9, 2007
A Merajuk Session Went Wrong
A problem that seems like so unsolvable, suddenly became a joke.
Had 2 days of hell, gave someone hell when this person was trying to make things right again...
Went home after a fooked up session, before going back, did a medley of malays-broken-hearts-you-dont-love-me-i'm-gonna-kill-myself songs and then picked up Kak CT from work Sent her home and went to pick up A. I didn't say anything when there's alot on my mind to be said. None good. So I guess it was OK to diam only.
Anyway, less than half an hour and I felt this big pang of guilt. So I picked up the phone and called A. We drove to THE PLACE and talked about it. Just talk. One person facing east, one facing west. Then I don't know what happened but we both ended up laughing.
Then we watched that Priscilla: The Adventure of theDesert Queen. Typical, halfway and a tummyache, which I think is not real. Blueks... Pandai la u belakon...
When things goes bad, I'd often ask myself "Is It Worth It?", come times like this, I'd probably say "Yes, it is worth it". So guys and gals, if you think you've found the one, or the other one, whatever tickles your fancy, whatever floats your boat, hang on to him or her, let go at least once, then go back and think about it. ARE YOU READY FOR IT? IF YOU'RE NOT SURE, MAYBE WHEN THE TIME COMES, AND YOU'RE READY, MAYBE THE OTHER PERSON WONT BE THERE ANYMORE. Sometimes, jumping into the unknown is the best way to go.
So back to the fight scene... The rest is history. I'm not single anymore. Again. Maybe next week I'll be single... Again... a yo-yo relationship. with lots and lots of ups and downs, mostly downs, but the ups are worth waiting for...
Anyway this one's from my conty that I did a few days back... It doesn't mean anything now but I guess, if it helped me, it might be useful to others...
If you find yourself singing this song....
Just remember the other person might be singing this song back at you....
There's always an answer for every question, usually more than one, it's up to us to pick the best, but sometimes, what's best for us is not what we want and sometimes, what we want isn't the best for us. Pandai la cakap...
Had 2 days of hell, gave someone hell when this person was trying to make things right again...
Went home after a fooked up session, before going back, did a medley of malays-broken-hearts-you-dont-love-me-i'm-gonna-kill-myself songs and then picked up Kak CT from work Sent her home and went to pick up A. I didn't say anything when there's alot on my mind to be said. None good. So I guess it was OK to diam only.
Anyway, less than half an hour and I felt this big pang of guilt. So I picked up the phone and called A. We drove to THE PLACE and talked about it. Just talk. One person facing east, one facing west. Then I don't know what happened but we both ended up laughing.
Then we watched that Priscilla: The Adventure of theDesert Queen. Typical, halfway and a tummyache, which I think is not real. Blueks... Pandai la u belakon...
When things goes bad, I'd often ask myself "Is It Worth It?", come times like this, I'd probably say "Yes, it is worth it". So guys and gals, if you think you've found the one, or the other one, whatever tickles your fancy, whatever floats your boat, hang on to him or her, let go at least once, then go back and think about it. ARE YOU READY FOR IT? IF YOU'RE NOT SURE, MAYBE WHEN THE TIME COMES, AND YOU'RE READY, MAYBE THE OTHER PERSON WONT BE THERE ANYMORE. Sometimes, jumping into the unknown is the best way to go.
So back to the fight scene... The rest is history. I'm not single anymore. Again. Maybe next week I'll be single... Again... a yo-yo relationship. with lots and lots of ups and downs, mostly downs, but the ups are worth waiting for...
Anyway this one's from my conty that I did a few days back... It doesn't mean anything now but I guess, if it helped me, it might be useful to others...
If you find yourself singing this song....
Just remember the other person might be singing this song back at you....
There's always an answer for every question, usually more than one, it's up to us to pick the best, but sometimes, what's best for us is not what we want and sometimes, what we want isn't the best for us. Pandai la cakap...
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