Me Against Everything Else.

Disclaimer: these are my thoughts. It may or may not be as it happens, more likely the versions that I remember. I might come back and change parts of it. So here goes... 

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It can be very frustrating when you are ready to grab life by the throat and live but then life snaps back at you and say "Die!" 

Sometimes I feel it is just best to agree with life, to stop fighting for things that I must fight for. I strongly believe that if you have to fight for something, beg for something or put huge effort to get something, then that something must be not something that is right for you. 

And this means that you shouldn't want it. I don't want it. 

End of 2022 and most part of 2023 saw me fighting monsters that life has thrown at me. Life has let loose many monsters that could have easily killed me many times over. I've fought all of them, beaten them and even tamed some of them. 

Now I am just tired of fighting. I am bored of fighting. I have lost interest in fighting.I just don't want to fight anymore. 

I know this is not a good mindset to start off 2024, but so far, 2024 has been nothing but hostile towards me.