I have been absent from this blog for too long.
If this blog is a lover, then it would've walked away a long, long time ago. But it's not. That's comforting to know.
It is comforting to know, that when things get too overwhelming, I can just stop doing everything and just look inside my mind. I will look back and find the things I like the most.
Every day, we live and we make memories. We try to make sense of things. we store these memories in our minds and then we move on.
We tend to forget that we have them and then we truly forget. I guess one of my gifts (and curse) is to be able to remember things together with the feelings associated with them.
From the last post up to now, it was a crazy gap.
2020 was the year that COVID-19 happened. It hit the whole world and it hit hard. I guess the more connected we are, the more danger that we pose to one another, especially when it involves things that we don't know and people tend to panic when faced with things that they don't know.
I lost my father (not to COVID-19) that year. The train ride back to my hometown was painful. It was like trying hard to hold back the tears and wanting to scream everything all at once. It suddenly hit me, I love my Abah and I will never see him ever again and will never hear his voice again.
It was so confusing as I am sad and yet I am happy that Abahs' suffering has ended. The pain of losing someone you love is beyond words. But I accept that death is a fact of life and we all will have to face it, eventually.
Well, I think I've deviated too far from what I intended to say. Of late, I've been having a lot of tummy issues. It could be something serious, I don't know, but I like to pretend that it is due to stress. I had to force myself to eat at home even though I don't feel like eating.
So yesterday, I was lost on what to eat so I went through my head and found something that I used to enjoy when I first moved to Langkawi. it's Boom Boom Corners' Butter Chicken. I remember going there with my friend and I will always order my Butter Chicken with 2 Roti Boom and two Roti Boom is usually not enough, so I ended up ordering two more!
In case you are wondering what is Butter Chicken, it is a chicken dish made with tomatoes and spices and flavoured with butter. Lots of butter. There's some chopped almond in there.
I was surprised by the price of chopped almonds! I had to pay RM10 for a small palm-sized container of chopped almonds. Normally I would just buy the normal salted almonds and chop them myself, but I can't find any.
Back to the story. I also remember Boom Boom Corners' Pineapple Juice. I like mine with a dash of lime juice. Lime, not Calamansi. If no lime, then don't bother. I am particular like that. Ah... The good old days.
I've since moved on to KL. From what I hear, the Boom Boom Corner is no longer there, the owner has moved out from Langkawi and so I had to recreate the Butter Chicken.
I've included the photo of my version of Butter Chicken. I think I did alright and that's comforting to know that I can still reach into my mind and have something that I love. You can too, and that's comforting.
