Bittersweet...

In my hallucination
I saw my beloved's flower garden
In my vertigo, in my dizziness
In my drunken haze

Whirling and dancing like a spinning wheel

I saw myself as the source of existence

I was there in the beginning
And I was the spirit of love
Now I am sober
There is only the hangover
And the memory of love
And only the sorrow


I yearned for happiness,
I asked for help,
I want mercy.


And my love says,
Look at me and hear me,
Cause I am here just for that.


I am your moon and your moonlight too
I am your flower garden and your water too
I have come all this way, eager for you
Without shoes or shawl

I want you to laugh
To kill all your worries
To love you
To nourish you


Oh sweet bitterness
I will soothe you and heal you

I will bring you roses
I, too, have been covered with thorns