I hate this life

I am bored. I am broke. I am in pain. I am in pain.

So I went back (not really) to SP. Took the 2.30 pm ferry and arrive @ Kola Kedah at about 4pm. Mr. Mizon was late as usual. Terpaksa la aku posing ala2 tourist yang tour agentnya tak sampai kat situ. Arrived in SP at about 6pm and straight away went shopping for aquarium fish like crazy.

Le Nongs' fish shop is now my new favorite kedai ikan! Dang! So many fish that I only dream about was on sale. Leopard Ctenopoma (RM8), Apollo Shark (RM8), Cardinal Tetra (RM4), Glass Catfish (RM4), 2' Aba Aba (RM600), 1'++ True Alligator Gar (RM55- I placed a deposit for both!) and the most unforgetable huge double-tail goldfish (I'm not a sucker for goldfish, they're so girly, but these were the size of a small melon!) and many many more!

So all in all I bought:

1. Cherry Barb (5pc)
2. White Cloud Mountain Minnow (5pc)
3. Blue Tetra (5pc)
4. Penguin Tetra (5pc)
5. Jumbo Neon Tetra (5pc)
6. Rummy-Nosed Tetra (5pc)
7. Upside-Down Catfish (Bought 3 but 2 DOA- Dead on Arrival la)
8. Apollo Shark (Bought 2, both arrived alive but 1 got gobbled up by my Anguilla Anguilla)
9. Chinese Algae Eater "Loach" (Bought 3- Original Wild, Orange and White)

In case people are wondering how big is my aquarium, it's huge! 5'x2.5'x2.5'.

My community tank includes the ones that I just bought (list up there except for Apollo Shark) these species

1. Tiger Barb (Mossy Green, Orange and Wild type)
2. Rosy Barb
3. Zebra Danio (TK2 and Wild)
4. Giant Danio
5. Harlequin Rasbora
6. Red-Tailed Tetra
7. Red-Eyed Tetra
8. Black Petticoat Tetra
9. Black Neon Tetra
10. Sarpae Tetra
11. Corydoras (Aeneus, Albino Aeneus, Panda)
12. Black Ghost Knifefish
13. Freshwater Goby
14. Shistura sp. (Caught this in Lubuk Semilang)
15. Shrimp (Dono what species)
16. Betta (those hillstream kind- wild caught, cant remember the name la)
17. Silver Dollar.

Note: If you're wondering what the hell are these fish I'm keeping... Google it! I listed the most popular common name. It should be very easy to find.

And the best thing that happened. My community aquarium leaked! Hampes! Tapi takpe, when life throws you lemon, you make lemonade. It's about time for me to recreate/reuse the unused aquariums lying around my crib.

Am working on the 4'x1'x1' aquarium (hopeless- cannot lift up as the glass is very thin, got compact sand at the bottom, very dirty, but I put water to cycle in it anyway).

I have two 2'x1.5'x1.5' is cleaned, managed to clean only 1 for the time being, the other 1 got water, heavy la! Maybe I'll use these for breeding something.

Then there's the hexagonal aquarium. I want to use that to keep something elegant. Maybe the alligator gar will be housed there before it grows to half of its' full potential size (5'-10')

Hehehe.

My meals nearly entirely consists of yogurt, orange juice, 1 hot meal and coffee. Hair dropping like mad (arghhhh tension!). Sakit perut non-stop (arggghhh... Tension jugak!). Work pressure (both part time and outside jobs sucks! I hate my jobs but I love the money, but they always pay late!) Umah berselerak (kemas la sikit dari dulu). Bored to death. Dont wanna stay at home, dont wanna go out. Dont know what I want.

Ok. Time for me to get back being crazy...

Love is like...

__________________________ A blank space.

Up to you to fill in the blanks.

Nomore Mind Puke... It's Mind Fart of the Day

Love is like...

A very expensive dinner. If could be good, it could be bad but in the end, you have to pay for it.

Mind Puke of the Day... Again...

Love is like...

The air... It's no big deal unless you're not getting any...

Too much air is no good as well, you'll end up passing gas non-stop...

Mind Puke of the Day

Love is like...

Buasir... It's a lot of unnecessary pain in places you can't really see unless you squat and use a mirror.

I think. I Do. Simple and Easy.

These are my favorite makan item. Orange juice, yogurt, cough drops and ciggy. Not fogetting, lots and lots of plain water. I lupa satu agi... Black coffee tanpa sugar... 10 more kgs to go. Sial tol. 10 very degil kilos.

My World... Falling Apart.

First my heart was cracked into pieces.

Then my car top slashed.

Now my community aquarium cracked and leaking stinking aquarium water all over the floor.

I just cleaned the fucking house for fucking hours. Great, just great.

If all this shitty shit continues, I'm gonna kills myself. Preferably in some extremely painful way.

Am being over-dramatic, but seriously, everything is shitty.

Changing My Tunes. Different Yet Still The Same.

I was so like I dunno...

Am feeling confused. Should I call my baby asking for one last dinner together? I mean it'd be something. Today is supposed to be our 11th month together. I'm here, my baby's somewhere around here, I think.

So today started like, should I call? Will I get an answer? Will I be distrubing something? Will I make matter worse? Ai...

So I think to myself... The worst thing that can happen has already happened... So I call. I got an answer, my baby said, call back tomorrow. Hmmm... It's a conundrum... Should I call?

The World Has Its Shine (But I Would Drop It On a Dime)

I’m not one for love songs.
The way I’m living makes you feel like giving up
But you don’t,
And I want everything for you.

My disappointment
‘Cause you’ve been left behind
And the world has its shine,
I would drop it on a dime for you.

(Hey oh!)
And whatever it takes.
(Hey oh!)
I’m gonna make my way home.
(Hey oh!)
We can turn our backs on the past
And start over…

Not long ago
I gave up hope,
But you came along
You gave me something I could hold on to.
Woah-oh.
And I want you.
Oh, woah.
More than you could ever know.

Before I met you
I used to dream you up and make you up in my mind (up in my mind)
Woah-oh.
And all I ever wanted
Was to be understood.
You’ve been the only one who could.
I could never turn my back on you.

(Hey oh!)
And whatever it takes.
(Hey oh!)
I’m gonna make my way home.
(Hey oh!)
We can turn our backs on the past
And start over…

Not long ago (not long ago)
I gave up hope, (I gave up hope)
But you came along (you came along)
You gave me something I could hold on to.
Woah-oh.
And I want you.
Oh, woah.
More than you could ever know (more than you could ever know.)
More than you could ever know.
It’s you.

Not long ago
I gave up hope,
But you came along.
Gave me something I could hold on to.
Woah-oh.
(Yeah!)
Not long ago (not long ago)
I gave up hope, (I gave up hope)
But you came along (you came along)
You gave me something I could hold on to.
Woah-oh.
And I want you.
Oh, woah.
More than you could ever know.